God is constantly pushing me to a place of dependence upon him. He hates it when I become dependant on my own abilities. He loves to see me thrive but not to see me comfortable.
I used to think there would come a point when life slotted into place when all my ducks where lined up in a row but now I realise that life is life and it is ever changing! Just when life seems to settle something happens that throws a spanner in the works.
For the disciples it was the Jesus death. Everything was going well they thought they had found the promised and long awaited messiah who would call down heaven to earth to wipe away the evil Roman Empire and free the Jews as the chosen people of God.
THERE WAS A PLAN and there was a set way things were meant to happen and then SUDDENLY everything changed! Jesus died and their world was rocked, all preconceptions went out of the wondow and the future was uncertain the parameters of life had shifted and they did not know what to do! They all respond differently to this unexpected turn of events, despite the fact Jesus had been warning them it would happen for some time!
Our worlds are the same, we look towards a plan a future goal and then the horizon shifts what was clear is not so clear and we have to adjust. Change is the ever constant.
In the midst of daily life the thing that never changes or turns is the words on the page of the Bible, well actually, not so much the physical words, the ink on paper BUT the spirit of the word that is alive. When we doubt, when we fear, when our worlds are changed and we are not sure what to do or how to solve the problem to get to solid ground again...HIS WORD remains HIS NAME is still JESUS and he is still looking for ways to love you.
